Chlorpromazine given to me after suicide attempt?

People act differently to meds. Sometimes the older stuff actually works better. If it's not working for you, you could always ask to switch. Maybe you should consider entering a rehab facility to help with the depression and addiction. I think you have a lot of stressors in your life that need to be dealt with in order to see yourself as one with value. At least find someone to talk to. Best of luck.